Getting my connection secure.

Growth is a natural part of life that extends beyond the physical and into every aspect of your being. The body needs the brain to function, and how we function (grow, live) depends on the mind. Your mind is the control room of your life, literally, and your brain is headquarters (ha ha, headquarters! I’m so corny. 😆) Anyway, in all seriousness, our minds are our power source, so it’s imperative that we’re aware of where we’re drawing our power from. Is it a good source, or is the connection kind of iffy?

Proverbs 23:7, “For as he thinks in his heart, so is he.”

I have an extension cord, that’s a decent extension cord (to me), the connection works fine, but whenever I plug something into it, it slips right back out. This can be frustrating when I’m trying to do something, because I have to keep plugging the electronic back into the extension cord, and start whatever I was doing all over again. This causes whatever I was doing to take longer than the anticipated time, I’d planned on doing it. Although there’s no issue with the electricity I’m using, there is an issue with how I receive the electricity, and even though I may argue that it’s a good extension cord, the truth is, the connection isn’t that great.

This is a reminder to me of my iffy connection with the Holy Spirit sometimes. There’s nothing wrong with the Holy Spirit, The power of God always works. He’s an awesome power source, however… my connection isn’t always that great, and it’s has nothing to do with God, it has everything to do with the way I think (my mind) sometimes. Sometimes, my mindset is trash. Okay, there, I said it.

Sometimes, I can be petty. Sometimes, I’m a real B#%$@! Sometimes, I say 🖕🏾a person’s feelings, I’m about to give them a piece of my mind. I’m VERY passive aggressive, sometimes, I cuss sometimes, and sometimes I be waiting for somebody to try me! It’s like I live in the “wish a ninja woods…” Not everyone will get that, and that’s okay. 🙃

Moving right along. I love myself, but I don’t like me sometimes. I’m a pretty jacked up person sometimes, and nope, I’m not afraid to admit it! God has bestowed me with a lot of wisdom, gifts, and grace, but sometimes, I do things my way, and that’s where the disconnect comes in. He said, lukewarm and He’ll spit you out! 🥴

Sometimes, I be feeling like the plug on my flat irons that slips out of the extension cord. Sometimes, I don’t feel that fire! I have to keep that connection secure! You know, I could hide my flaws and say, my connection is fine, but that will not only make me a liar, and it will keep me in a cycle of repeated lessons, prolonging the time it takes for me to reach my destiny. Tonight is the night that I get my mind right (in Christ).

I think that part of the reason I’m aggressive is because I had to grow up defending myself. I was the first child, only girl, and I didn’t have a slew of cousins or family members my age to have my back growing up in the hood. If you don’t know anything about living in the ghetto, it’s straight gutter, and if you don’t learn to stand up for yourself, you will get ran over… kind of like what goes on as an adult in everyday life, except you learn these lessons in elementary. I had to learn to face my fears head on. I know now that I have the let that aggression go, and allow the Holy Spirit to fight for me.

Going through that in my childhood did help me to get through some pretty tough and otherwise traumatic things in my adulthood, but there’s some underlying anger issues still lingering from childhood that causes me to act like a savage sometimes. Things are about to change, starting now. No more focusing on me, if my thoughts aren’t securely connected to HIM! I’ve been protecting myself the wrong way. I’ve been living in defense mode, and it’s time I let my guard down, and put the banner of Jesus Christ up!

I no longer care about people recognizing who I am, and putting respect on my name. I want them to see the God in me! I want to be about this saved life, one hundred percent of the time, not just when I realize that there’s a disconnect (although it’s great to acknowledge the disconnect and correct it), it’s even better not to lose the connection at all! It’s going to be tough letting go of my extension cord, 😜 okay, maybe my previous mindset too! It will feel like a funeral, but letting go can feel like a funeral, and in a way it is, because you’re saying a final goodbye to something that has been a part of your life for years.
It’s something you’ve gotten comfortable with, and even though that season of your life has come to an end, it’s still so hard to say goodbye! Oh, well… Good riddance! This season of my life is about digging deeper and snatching out the roots of everything that’s keeping me from real growth, healing, and reaching my full potential in Christ.

Romans 12:2, “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is–his good, pleasing and perfect will.”

Philippians 3:12-14, “Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”

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