Ever been asleep, and you were trying to wake up, but you couldn’t? Maybe you were exhausted, but you had a deadline to meet, so you kept waking up to take care of business before you ran out of time, but then you fell asleep, and this time, you struggled to get up. It’s like you were in the ring with Sleep, the heavy weight champion with the strength the same capacity as Benadryl, and you were in the ring with nothing, but the size of Benadryl… Wonk, wonk, wonk… yes, you’re the light weight… (I didn’t take Benadryl btw.. 😉)
Anyway, you may have thought you were awake, but you were dreaming. Your dreamed looked exactly how your room looked, except there were a few things out of place, but you didn’t know that things were out of place, because in your dream, it was “normal or your currently reality.” Although you struggle to wake up, you still don’t completely understand that you’re asleep. You think that you’re conscious, you just can’t get up. Some people call this, sleep paralysis.
There are several theories about what’s going on during this time, but I’ve found that whenever I try to fight sleep a few times, sleep usually TKO me for a minute, and that’s when I’m dealing with this. It doesn’t happen often, but it has happened. As a matter of fact, it happened not even fifteen minutes ago, but let me tell you how God works… (I just love HIM) So, I was struggling, trying to wake up, and in my dream, I thought I was awake, and I was looking for something, but I couldn’t find it. I started getting impatient because I couldn’t find what I was looking for.
I felt like if I’d found what I was looking for, I could have woke up! After struggling for some time, I heard a man’s voice. One that was deep, but it was a voice of certainty and ease… The voice sounded like a friend that you would go to for advice or encouragement. When the voice spoke, it immediately got my attention!
I felt like a deer in headlights y’all, no kidding! I know that this was the voice of GOD. HE said, “You’ll be alright. You just need to remember who you are,” in the most powerful yet calming, reassuring voice I’ve ever heard y’all! He sounded like, I had a problem, but HE was unbothered! (JESUS, THANK YOU)
Then I felt HIM stir my spirit! I know that it was the hand of GOD! I could literally cry right now. It felt like GOD was stirring my spirit. I could feel the inside of me moving side to side as if it was being stirred with a huge hand.
It felt like my insides were being kneaded, but again, with one huge hand. I know it was GOD! Immediately, I said, “I am Shubricca Lukendall Bell, daughter of the MOST HIGH GOD.” I didn’t wake up after I said that, but I smiled and thought to myself, “I know that I’m going to wake up. It’s just a matter of time.”
Immediately, I woke up! I’m talking within a second of me not worrying about it anymore. It probably was faster than a second, because our dreams seem much longer than they really are. Anyway, I woke up with the energy of five cups of coffee! I didn’t drink coffee, I said, “I WOKE UP WITH THE ENERGY!”
My GOD! Listen, I don’t think I’ve ever understood the scripture, “Stir up the gift,” like I do now! I’ve experienced this stirring of the Holy Spirit, literally! I’ve felt HIS POWER moving gently, but deeply within me, and my God, y’all there’s not a feeling in this world like it! When HE stirred my spirit, the inside of my body felt energized. It was like charging a dead battery!
I could feel my organs awake! There are several take aways I’ve noticed from this experience. First, GOD IS ALWAYS WATCHING, even in our struggles, or when we are looking for the wrong things, or times we try to handle things in our own strength! Secondly, the Holy Spirit is really out here crying out to GOD on our behalf, when we don’t know what to pray, which is why HE said, “You’ll be okay. You just need to remember who you are.”
The Holy Spirit had been telling God, “Your child is in distress,” but the crazy thing is y’all, I didn’t realize how bad it must’ve been! I was trying to wake up on my own, which brings me to my third take away from this experience, GOD ALWAYS HAS HIS KIDS BACK! Even if we aren’t soliciting HIS HELP, it comes as a standard, when you’re HIS KID! It’s like signing up for a great insurance plan, except the benefits are waaay better, and Jesus already paid the cost! 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾 I just thank GOD for being all seeing, all knowing, all powerful, and the ONE TRUE GOD!
When HE told me to remember who I am, I felt like Simba, when Scar thought he was going to kill him, like he killed Mufasa. In my spirit, I jumped up when I proclaimed who I am! I’m just grateful y’all. I love me some HIM! My fourth takeaway is, I need to set a sleep pattern. Like for real, for real.
I’ve been battling insomnia for months now, and lately, my body has been trying to go to sleep at a decent hour, but my mind is like, “Nah, I have to do this, or I have to do that.” From this day forward, I’m going to make a promise to myself to do what I can during the day, and put what I can off until tomorrow, so that I can get a good night’s rest. Currently, it’s 2:15 am, but that’s besides the point, considering what I was just battling! It’s not meant for me to sleep right now. Apparently, GOD wants someone to read this.
Everything happens for a reason. It happens to you, but it happens for someone else! Read that again! There’s a purpose in everything we go through. I’ve gotten my comfort, lesson, and wisdom from this experience, now it’s time for my experience to bless/help somebody else.
The last, but certainly not least take away from this experience is that what we consider normal or reality, is not our truth! What we see and what we go through, no matter how real it seems, doesn’t define who we are. We may experience something or get used to something being the norm or our reality, but we don’t have to! Heaven is eternal, this world is not! The power of God and the vision HE has given you should be your outlook on life, because if you get caught up in the physical, you will have a hard time believing the Spirit!
I personally have no clue who this is for, but you’ll know it’s for you! God makes no mistakes. He allows things to happen in our lives in order that it may benefit us as we move forward, and bring about something good not only in our lives, but the lives of others! I love you all! God bless! ♥️
2 Timothy 1:6-7
Therefore I remind you to stir up the gift of God which is in you through the laying on of my hands. For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us.
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